Grow
words and music by Michael deBel

being alone in the morning
has never been easy for me
longing for the evening
longing for some sleep

where should I go without loving
telling me so
all that you know
you made me grow

you always could see inside me
better than I ever did
frightened of what you’d set free
gratefully now I admit

where should I go without loving
telling me so
all that you know
you made me grow

and it’s more than just a feeling inside
all my walls came crumbling down
you revealed the inner me
I’m still lying on the ground

where should I go without loving
telling me so
all that you know
you made me grow

and it’s more than just a feeling inside
all my walls came crumbling down
you released the inner me
I’m still lying on the ground

suddenly somehow it shook me
safe I was before
my growing adventures
won’t include you anymore

where should I go without loving
telling me so
all that you know
you made me grow

Ballad in G
words and music by Michael deBel

once in a while I could use some direction
always raise the same objection
signing upon the dotted line
is going to take me plenty of time
got an endless list of pros and cons here
the longer I think the more will appear
I know that if I make up my mind
a lot of things will be left behind

now and then I start to dream of something new
break the chains, untie the bonds
commence with something new
commence with something new

I have built my life around her
when I was hopelessly devoted to her
commitment never felt like being me
but made me happier than I thought I could be
we started out with pure intentions
and a lot of things we never mentioned
but time did what it so often does
and brought back all our burdens on us

now and then I start to dream of something new
break the chains, untie the bonds
commence with something new
commence with something new

see I don’t really know what makes me want to stay here
is it still love or just convenience and fear
and how am I supposed to live with someone
who doesn’t like herself
how am I supposed to get things right
when every day right is being redefined
with an unbearable pressure on everything I try

I ain’t going to pull the trigger
for this matter here is so much bigger
than anything that’s been here before
though I can’t handle it anymore
I ain’t someone to give up easy
I miss the times when things were breezy
do I fight a battle already lost
with a straight face but fingers crossed

now and then I start to dream of something new
break the chains, untie the bonds
commence with something new
commence with something new

I think we missed a sign in some place
blindly running into disgrace
should I pick up the pieces and come home
or should I head forward alone

Doorway
words and music by Michael deBel

me, I’m standing in the doorway
looking at the crowd that passes by
seeing all those familiar faces
rushing through their lives
with tired eyes and faraway looks
sipping on their paper cups
me, I don’t care about the world
I keep standing in the doorway doing fine

me, I’m standing in the doorway
trying to recall forgotten times
thinking of old faces, friends and lovers
I called mine
trying to remember
what I once tried to forget
I can’t find a major thing
I honestly regret

and so I come around in cowboy boots
and an old Stetson hat
it’s just like getting rearranged
ain’t it just like good old Robert Dylan said,
I used to care but things have changed

me, I’m standing in the doorway
whistling some old forgotten song
staring into nowhere
waiting for my love to come on home
living in a distant land
where the pavement turns to sand
me, I don’t care about the world
I keep standing in the doorway doing time

and so I come around in cowboy boots
and an old Stetson hat
it’s just like getting rearranged
ain’t it just like good old Robert Dylan said
I used to care but things have changed

so baby come on down the road
won’t you come and follow me down that road
you’re better off without that load

Journey
words and music by Michael Kull

I’ve seen the far east countries
I was the first on moon
I visited Atlantis
I felt the ocean’s gloom
there are many things that I have discovered
many things that I have found
but still I step around trying to catch my sound
the sound that’s sounding
with my surroundings

make a journey around in space
the world is young
this life has just begun
someday when I’ll be gone
maybe I will see through the eyes of another one

well, these times are changing
as I will change every time
despite my mind is aging
I only try to find my style
while this planet is turning
I will turn anyhow
I go down to rock another town
what’s wrong with this
what’s wrong with this
I just do it

make a journey around in space
the world is young
this life has just begun
someday when I’ll be gone
maybe I will see through the eyes of another one

make a journey around in space
the world is young
this life has just begun
someday when I’ll be gone
maybe I will see through the eyes of another one

Citylights
words and music by Michael deBel

I have seen the citylights
shining bright when darkness tries to fall
I have seen some people crawl
long after father death has made his call

I start to wonder
I start to think
but like before I do not find a link

I’m so hard to please
I’m down on my knees
I saw the disease that made you cry
I’ve lost all my trust
whatever the cost
I won’t open up because I’m lost

I have met examples of some people
who got pleasures out of pain
I have walked some stony path
and I have hit the road and gone insane

I start to wonder
I start to think
but like before I do not find a link

I’m so hard to please
I’m down on my knees
I saw the disease that made you cry
I’ve lost all my trust
whatever the cost
I won’t open up because I’m lost

I have read the bible
and some secondary books to understand
I have tried a million times
to live my life right up to promised land

I start to wonder
I start to think
but like before I do not find a link

I’m so hard to please
I’m down on my knees
I saw the disease that made you cry
I’ve lost all my trust
whatever the cost
I won’t open up because I’m lost

Curiosity Show
words and music by Michael Kull

once in may 1964
there was an incident in the studio
it seemed to be like everyday
and all the actors thought it was a guy in a fancy dress
but as the beast bit off one’s feet
the truth came out and the scandal’s revealed
everyone ran around and cried panicly
some gapers stood aside and said, hey

it’s curious – so curious
frightening – oh, worrying

blood splattered around all over the floor
the people rushed to the exit door
they fought each other to get out of the room
but they were blind to see, so this was their doom
no one could help them or set them free
no one could prevent the catastrophe
so the police came to safe the day
but as they saw the slaughter they just said, hey

it’s curious – so curious
frightening – worrying

in search for new curiosity
they brought the case to gape TV
shocked and helpless what to say
people sat before their screens and thought, hey

it’s curious – so curious
frightening – worrying
curious – so curious
frightening – worrying

Repartee
words and music by Michael deBel

well I keep on thinking about you
ever since we met last night
and all the things we want to
and all the things we might
well I don’t know what it was right now
but I’m smiling self-assured
and I think I’m being cured
keep me breathing

I just sit around being foolish
when there’s work to be done
supposing, hoping, knowing
that I’m not the only one
I just see no sense in doing stuff
my mind is far away
let’s try another day
just ignore me

well my mind is far away
busy making plans for another day
don’t care what others say
and I don’t know what to do
playing waiting games in some waiting room
minutes seem like years without you

well we will make it you’ll see
despite those who say it’s wrong
now we can truly say this time
we feel that we belong
and nothing under sun and moon
can make us be apart
bound right from the start
keep us breathing

well my mind is far away
busy making plans for another day
don’t care what others say
and I don’t know what to do
playing waiting games in some waiting room
minutes seem like years without you

well my mind is far away
busy making plans for another day
don’t care what others say
and I don’t know what to do
playing waiting games in some waiting room
minutes seem like years without you
without you

Please Stay
words and music by Michael Kull

if you got to go
I won’t hold you back
I’m not in town
cause I can’t stand to see your bags all packed

that’s it
we had a lovely time
now we’re done
nothing’s fine
but I pray

stay here - please stay
stay here - please stay

I’m messing around
I can’t sleep at night
I hate this town
I’ve got to get another sight

that’s it
this is the way it goes
I regret we’re done
but I want you to know
I pray

stay here - please stay
stay here - please stay

Lonely Fields
words and music by Michael Kull

when I find myself in darkness all around me
when I’ve lost the path to lead me out this lonely plain
at night I grind my teeth
trying to fight my fears
and I wonder if the light will rise again
I wonder if the light will rise again

when I think of all the burdens lying before me
when I think of all the troubles that might axe my plans
wake up another day
see my life has flown away
and I wonder if I’ll ever wake again
I wonder if I’ll ever wake again

sometimes you’ve got to fight
sometimes you will shed your tears
sometimes you’ve got to make a way
battle through these fields
despite the things you don’t wanna do
oh me
this life ain’t always easy
this life won’t let you rest
anyway I try to do my best
(to go through this, to go through this)
we all try to do our best

when I falter looking at these lonely fields
when I’m voiceless and I wonder what to say
I fear the times to come
when all the stakes are done
when there’s nothing left to think of another day
when there’s nothing left to think of another day

sometimes you’ve got to fight
sometimes you will shed your tears
sometimes you’ve got to make a way
battle through these fields
despite the things you don’t wanna do
oh me
this life ain’t always easy
this life won’t let you rest
anyway I try to do my best
(to go through this, to go through this)
we all try to do our best

sometimes you’ve got to fight
sometimes you will shed your tears
sometimes you’ve got to make a way
battle through these fields
despite the things you don’t wanna do
oh me
this life ain’t always easy
this life won’t let you rest
anyway I try to do my best
(to go through this, to go through this)
we all try to do our best

Make Things Undone
words and music by Michael deBel

comes a time when your world falls down
all you have to do is choose
it‘s the toughest of decisions
either way you‘re going to lose

who’d have thought it turns out this way
that a plan could go so wrong
all that’s left is my bad conscience
and no place where I belong

I’m sorry for what happened
I’m sorry for it all
I’m sorry for my weakness
my imaginary walls
though I try to face it and try to be strong
I can’t make things undone

lately I start to realize
that all my efforts to forestall
are just as useless as my wish
to keep the things as they are

I’m sorry for what happened
I’m sorry for it all
I’m sorry for my weakness
my imaginary walls
though I try to face it and try to be strong
I can’t make things undone

the things I cannot do burn inside my heart
the fear of losing you tears it all apart

it feels like the dreams that I had long ago
are much like some footprints I lost in the snow
though I try to face them and try to hold on
I can‘t make things undone

I’m sorry for what happened
I’m sorry for it all
I’m sorry for my weakness
my imaginary walls
though I try to face it and try to be strong
I can’t make things undone

Shine on Me
words and music by Michael deBel

if I wake up in the morning light
and make it through another night
I know your light still shines on me

if I make it through the day
and maybe find a getaway
I seize to be a restless escapee

I don’t know if I’m leaving tomorrow
or where I’m even going to stay
but if I make it through the night
and wake up in the morning light
I know your light still shines on me

if you show me how to start
without betraying my lost heart
I know your light still shines on me

some kind of a guiding sign
closer to the finish line
or maybe just a lock to fit my keys

I don’t know if I’m leaving tomorrow
or where I’m even going to stay
but if I make it through the night
and wake up in the morning light
I know your light still shines on me

I don’t know if I’m leaving tomorrow
or where I’m even going to stay
but if I make it through the night
and wake up in the morning light
I know your light will always shine